言葉にならないぐらい。。。好きっ＜３

寂しい～～悲しい～～帰りたくないよ～～

最近はずっとこの三つの言葉がアタシの頭の中に流れている～～

10日間。。9日間。。8日間。。7日間。。6日間。。。。。

どうすればいいのですか？　みんなも一緒に帰ろうか？ミッキーは京都に残ろうか？　

ホントにホントに大好きなみんなと別れたくないよ　T_T

先週からみんなの顔を見て、なんとなく、涙が出て来そう～～

みんなアタシのため、いっぱい手紙を書いてくれたり、一緒に遊んだりしてくれてありがとう。

アタシはいつも笑顔でみんなと話しているけど、本当は、心が割れてしまいそうだ。。。

これからもうみんなと授業を受けないよ。。もう一緒にご飯を食べられないよ。。もう一緒に遊べないんだよ。。

ミッキーはまだまだみんなと笑いたい。。みんなとたくさん喋りたい。。。

誰かが、時間を止まってほしい～～お願いだから、止まってくれないですか？

みんなは「大丈夫よ、ミッキー、また会えるから、頑張って日本に戻って来てネ！」って。。

でも違う。。全然違う。。また戻って来ても、みんなと学校へ行けないよ。。みんなと「授業がだるっ！！」っと言えないだよ。。六日にバスに乗ったらもう戻れないですよ。。T_T

この気持ちが分かるかな？もう死ぬそうぐらいな辛さやで。。。

ただそれたけ分かってほしい～～誰かが～～

言うたくないけど。。。

さようならT_T

2009~~~2010

awwww~~~it's the twinkling lights again~~~
i saw those pretty white lights in the bush of a neighbour's house. it was there at the same bush when i first arrived here in my new house...now after 10 months plus..they put it up again(guess they do it during winter)...

can't believe it has been more them 10 months since i've been here
so many things have happened
so many friends made
so many laughter shared
so many tears shed..........

now it's time for packing n preparing 2 leave this second home of mine...T_T
before this i've alwys told myself that " oh, there's still 3 months left...still long la..don worry"
then " walao, so fast tinggal 2 months nia, nvm la, 2 months = 60 days"
but truth is still truth n time is still time
and time is coming to an end now.....

school starts on the 8th for my school...which means i have only 20 days left in school now.
sad
sad
sad



but of cos not 100% sad la...i definitely miss my lovely lovely family..my sis..my mummy...my papa..my ama...my frens...n of cos the HEAT~~~~~~
but seriously...now that my time here is coming to an end..things seems to go smoother n nicer.
for example when i have to endure this cold cold weather when i first arrived here...it was torturing! but now...i only have to think " ok...jus tahan for a bit more then don have to suffer liao >_<" ( walao eh...sounds like i'm dying or somethg) LOL....
now...thinking of going back to a place called HOME is rili calming n encouraging.


but still!! can't believe i have to be forced onto a plane n leave in the next 31 days!!
can someone work some magic n move my family n friends from kay tee here?!?!?
haiz....guess i have to wake up n pack liao.....
さようなら、私の大好きな日本！！
（sayonara, watashi no daisuki na nihon!!）

ready...set...go!!!

it`s marathon day today!!
got up at 7.30 *verrryyy reluctantly* , had breakfast n got ready to join the school marathon.
and guess how many kilometers we have to run??
answer====> 9.5km! @o@!!
now imagine running that distance in short sleeves n short pants in 10'c ~~~~
well..at first it wasn`t that bad, i was at the front part of the race..but then.......beh tahan! so tired, and the air was so dry T_T everyone ended up potong-ing me..*sad case*
but at least the place was nice, we had to run along a river and there were lots of kids n lao ah pek-lao ah po jogging too. the worst part of the race is when you see an old man running past you...but then i think it`s a good thing too, cos you`ll suddenly be filled with this weird energy and speed up! haha! *don wan to lose to that lao ah pek!!*

anyway...i was amazed that i survived that marathon! didn`t have the confidence at all at first. but i managed to finish it in 1 hour and 10 minutes. V(^_^)V
to think of it..i also managed to climb mount fuji last september! whoa! micky is stronger than before now! bwahahaha!

glad the marathon is over and done now! let`s go back to the normal school live please~~~

frozen stiff

OMG! woke up today n eveything was going on like normal.
#woke up 10 minutes later than usual..well..normal la..
#went downstairs to brush my teeth n greet otosan n oksasan a very good morning >_< *good girl*
# went back into room to change into school uniform n tie up my hair n do some last minute school-bag-tidying
#rush downstairs, have breakfast, grab obento n off i go.........but then.....
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SAMUIIII!!!! it was freezing cold outside 2day, even though it`s sunny but the temperature was like 13・c only....walao eh...

#dash back indoors, grab scarf, dash back out again..
#went through a tormenting 10 minutes ride on my lovely bicycle..'enjoying! the morning breeze so much that i couldn`t even get off it later on--pi gu frozen stiff on the bicycle dy T_T * joking~~*


anyway, school was like normal la 2day, except those times when we have to get out of the school building into the cold cold weather. it rained though, during lunch break. that`s why 2day i din go have lunch in the canteen, can`t even imagine walking that 2 minutes walk to canteen.
bad news is that, i forgot to bring my flower umbrella to school 2day T_T well..it was sunny in the morning.....luckily my lovely friends bruce aka takohead and happy-go-lucky kei aka gay-chan was there and they walked me to my bus station. usually chris n bruce would accompany me to the bus station but today chris had to go to his host brother`s school festival so he left school earlier. T_T
appreciate you guys a lot takohead n gay-chan!! xoxoxo

autumm

awww~~can`t believe 7 months flew by so FAST! 0.o
autumm is already creeping into japan now. starting to get much much colder i even need to use 2 blankets to sleep at night.
but one thing a like about the season changing in japan is tat each season you get so many different types of flowers >_<. for example in spring of course there's sakura n also 'nano hana'(which means spring flowers). then in summer you can see hibiscus n sunflowers everywhere. now, there`s this really nice smelling flowers(dunno the name yet). it`s rili small n orange in colour, n everytime i cycle pass the bush of flowers i can always smell them. ^_^ n i heard that autumm is the best season for roses too!
wonder wat flowers we`ll get in winter though~~~

well..my school jus had a sports festival last week. it was so FUN n wayyyy different from CHWS sports day. here, students compete according to their class n also sports club. we had to design our own class t-shirt too ( my class had pink shirt!). then for the events we have the normal tug-of-war and relay. but then we had tug-of-LOG..hahaha, where students rush to the middle of the field n try to pull logs back to their starting position. it was a WAR ZONE at the field at tat time. sometimes we can see students flying upwards when the log become slanted(something like a see-saw). hahaha! too bad i tak sempat take out my camera n take a photo of it. T_T
next, we also have a rili different version of relay-there are challenges students have to go through went they run. 1st of all, bread-'biting'. hard to expalin rili, but there are lots of breads hung fron a thread n attached to a long pole(horizontal), then everyone have to bite of the bread fron the thread without uding their hands! looks like a bunch of hungry baby birds to me though. =P after tat, they hand over the baton n next student have to run while kicking a ball. then next person runs while covering their heads with paper bags(with holes for eyes of course!), and finally last student runs while holdins a tennis racket with a ball on it. lol~~
don ask, i DID NOT join this race. =P
and of course there's another competition, which is my favourite. explanaiton as shown below:
1st, 3 students carry another student up(like human pyramid, but evryone is standing n can run about).
2nd, the student at the top either wears a white or a red cap. (red team n white team are equally divided).
3rd, run like crazy when the whistle is blown n try to snatch the opposite team's cap! this is another WAR ZONE, bt this time a little bit nastier. everyone jus went crazy n keep chasing after each team. sometiems can see 3 red caps going after 1 white cap n cornering them until they get the white cap. phew~~n don worry, no one got hurt or die while attempting this 'sport'.
haha!
other than tat, we all can have free miso soup n tea too! no need to pay n there's no limit of how many times you wanna drink it. all thanks to the okasans(dear mothers).
anyway, we all enjoyed ourselves so much tat day, and got so tired(mainly from laughing).
never gonna forget this day! Gakuen ROX!!

S.O.S

anyone have any comments on long distance relationships???

need help before i go back to malaysia..T_T

gonna miss him so much >_<

school festival

i know~long time no update blog..apologise for tat >_<

but Kyoto Gakuen`s school festival has just finished n i had lots of fun! so thought of dropping a few word about it here. >_<

first of all, we all had to go through a few student-killing-preparation for the school festival-practising choir, doing posters, arranging duties, buying ingredients for our stall(waffle stall), designing t-shirts, collecting money(the most difficult job of all!) bla bla bla. my class is singing "heal the world" by MJ n we`re selling hot waffles! *yay!*

every student can only invite 3 friends from other school to come to the festival, so of course i invited my exchange student friends since i dunno other high school students here. lol.
and finally~~it`s the BIG DAY! eveyone came to school vry early to set up our waffle stall, and do a last minute pratice for the song. every class in 1st year have to join choir competition, do everyone si beh add oil lor. *touched* but the best thing is tat my class don use piano as the muscic, we use harp n violin...geng lea! >_< but sadly we din win, lost to another class singing high school musical song...*arrrggghhh~~*

after the competition we all started selling our waffle coupons around school. basically we jus walk around casually in school n ambush any teachers or parents or any friends tat we know. all we had to do jus wave the tickets right in front of their eyes n say "100￥".haha! sounds like along but tat`s our job la..wat 2 do..=p and the teachers also so kind, sure buy from us one. the worst customers are our friends who has their own class tickets, so we ended up buying from them pulak sometimes =_="

other than tat, there were lots of pameran in school. like the science team, calligraphy team, mothers team(selling home made products), music team( live concert at the downstairs cafe lounge), and many more lor. so whole day i bz like wat nia..wan sell tickets, cook waffles, watch concert, go eat eat eat, then wanna search for my own works in the pameran also. phew! it got worse when my exchange frens came, have to bring them around school n intro them lagi..hinz~~

the SF ended at like 3pm. we helped clean the stall then went for closing ceremony. after tat at 7.30pm our class go celebrate at a "yaki nikku" restaurant ( japanese style BBQ). almost 30 of us jus dashed into the restaurant n took 3 tables there. poor thing the waiters ceh kia like wat. haha! then we all keep ordering n ordering n BBQ-ing there. it`s like buffet la..jus tat the waiters bring wat you wants to the table. haha. had a great time lol..*happy*